Make-Up Free and Hating It

Do you remember when you first started wearing make-up? I do. I was a teenager who didn’t have a clue. More often than not, I could be found wearing blue eye shadow and black eye liner (the pictures are scary). I wish I could tell young me to get a tutorial from the ladies at the make-up counter in the mall. Why? Because I LOVE make-up. However, loving it and being a make-up application expert are two completely different things. I have no idea how to do any of the things you see on the YouTube make-up tutorial videos. But you know what, I’m OKAY with that!

Maybe that’s what made this week so difficult. I don’t do anything fancy with my make-up on a day-to-day basis. I usually use eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara, and a little lip tint (no more blue eyeshadow by the way). That’s it. So when my eye lid swelled up and I looked like Sloth from the Goonies, I was pissed, embarrassed, and in a great deal of pain. 

Yup, there it is ladies and gentlemen… My eye. This picture was taken 4 days after I started an antibiotic and 2 days after I started a steroid cream. The swollen and inflamed eyelid was due to a clogged duct. It eventually turned into a stye and I’m still trying to get rid of it. Today is day 15 and I have 6 more days of using the topical steroid. [Note: A lot of resources online say it is contagious. The ophthalmologist assured me it is not. He likened it to a pimple. Yeah… equally gross.]

My takeaway from this… No make-up on that eye until the steroid treatment is finished AND the stye goes away. I’ll be wearing make-up on my good eye and hiding the stye eye behind my hair in the mean time.  It shouldn’t seem like a big deal but it is… to me. Why? Make-up is important to me for a few reasons.

1. I love the way my eyes pop with a little eyeliner and mascara. We decorate our houses, add accoutrements to our clothes, accessorize with jewelry, etc. Why not add a little something to my face?

2. I dont feel like myself without it. I don’t wear it for anyone else. Wearing make-up is something I do for myself. My face feels naked without it. Going make-up free around the house on the weekend is one thing. But in public, I prefer to have my “face” on. Which brings me to my next point…

3. It’s my war paint. I could have the worst morning ever but slap a little make-up on and I’m ready to face day. It’s like a security blanket. I can hide my insecurities and fear behind a layer of color. Does it provide a real layer of protection? Eh, probably not. Do I care? Nope.

4. Kids. More often than not, my sleep is interrupted by my monsters. Sometimes they take turns waking me up and I’m lucky to get two straight hours of blissful rest. Where do I wear that exhaustion? On my face. What helps cover it up? Make-up.
I’m not someone who gladly goes bare faced or does so as a challenge to gender stereotypes. Wearing make-up is something I enjoy. I applaud the women out there who are confident in their own skin and go out without anything on their face. I’m not one of you. And in case you’re wondering… I do wear make-up to the gym. It’s that serious.

What’s your stance?


10 thoughts on “Make-Up Free and Hating It

  1. I was a blue eyeshadow, black eyeliner teen too! I still love vibrant eyeshadow though I’ve ditched the eyeliner. I feel your pain. I don’t wear makeup all the time, but if I suddenly was told I really COULDN’T – well that would be crummy! I hope your eye gets better soon.

  2. Just went through a bout of pink eye with the baby. I feel for you. Make Up for woman is such a personal thing and such a driver to self confidence. I say you do whatever makes you feel like you are owning it and feeling good about yourself. Life is too short not too!

  3. I hate when I get a stye. I love my makeup and I am such an eyeliner and mascara girl. I use an oil free eye makeup remover nightly to avoid makeup residue from clogging my ducts. Hope you feel better soon.

    1. My dad is the one who started calling it that. It used to be super annoying and now it helps me feel prepared to face the world. It’s funny how things change over time and with experience.

  4. Ouch. I had a stye right before a wedding I was part of last summer. Never before that. Thankfully it cleared up beforehand. Don’t worry to much. It will go away.